So when it comes to my fitness journey, I struggle. On. So. Many. Levels.
For example, I resorted to emotional eating the last few days due to stress. When I do, I tend to not care about anything, just shoving food into my mouth. In the end, I always regret it and beat myself up over it. That guilty feeling is not a good one, let me tell you.
I tend to let life's problems interfere with EVERYTHING - my workouts, eating healthy, relationships, etc. Instead of kicking the ass of those problems, I let them kick MY ass. *sigh*
This morning I was reflecting on my life lately. This is the worst financial distress for us than ever before, and it really depresses me. I was permanently laid off from my job back in October 2011. I started receiving unemployment benefits in November. Since then, I have been unable to get a job. The economy is just too hard and many, many people need jobs. The competition is too much.
This is the #1 reason I want to build my Beachbody business. And it's the #1 reason why I fail. Just thinking about our financial troubles depresses the hell out of me, and then I feel like doing nothing, absolutely nothing. Lately, I have found myself just sleeping it away, as if that will work. It doesn't, of course. I won't wake up one day and this will be gone. I have to WORK to get us out of this awful mess. We're good people. We shouldn't have to live this way.
I'm letting the depression and stress win this battle. I. So. Suck.
However, this morning, I told myself, "It's YOU. YOU are the reason you are not a success. YOU are the reason why YOU are not doing what it takes for YOUR business to succeed. And YOU are the only one who can get you out of this mess!"
That's a hard thing to hear, even from yourself. ;)
But it's the TRUTH.
I have got to take control of my emotions and emotional eating. If there is one thing I do know, it's that gorging on crappy food does NOT make me feel better, even when I try to convince myself it does. In fact, it does the opposite - makes me fee WORSE than I already do.
So, I've decided to work really hard the next few weeks on getting all of this wacky behavior under control. When I get stressed or upset, I need to do something besides eat, like go for a walk, read a book, etc. Whatever it takes to STOP THE INSANITY. Did you just hear Susan Powter's voice when you read that? Hehehe. I did. :D
I'm going to make myself workout six days a week to INSANITY, and on the seventh day, which is a rest day from that workout, I will walk or do yoga. I will have to do something active every day because it really does help with depression and stress.
So, the point of this blog post is that when you fall flat on your ass, you MUST pick yourself back up because nobody else is going to do it. Only you are in control of your destiny.
I just have to remind myself of this on a daily basis until it sticks. ;)
I will always own up to when I do gorge on food because it will help keep me accountable for my actions. It will also show that I am human and will have setbacks. I just have to work harder to not have as many.
Life is meant to be lived, I hear. Well, I'm ready to FINALLY live it.




